Hmm. Started the day by calling the doctor. For the last 2 results of my blood samples. After the negatory on the diabetes thing I was kind of expecting that it would be a general "no results at all" thing. I was expecting there to be nothing wrong at all, nothing out of the ordinary. I was wrong though.

Hey, I'm trying to build some suspense here.

Okay, well nothing excitedly dramatic. But the nurse I talked to first said that I had a lack of D vitamins. She asked me if I drank milk. Yes, I do. I think I drink plenty really. But she put me through to doctor Michael so I could talk to him. I asked about my test results and he said "Yes, they're a bit off". Spooky thing to say. But he didn't really explain more about it, he just wanted more samples. Urine samples. I have to 'collect' them three days in a row.

So I had to hurry off to the doctor's office and get a referal slip to the hospital. I need to go there to get the 'equipment' for the samples. I got the slip and I guess I'll go to the hospital on Monday. And then three days to take the samples. So by the end of next week I should have given them back to the doc. And then I'll have to wait again.

On the slip for the hospital doctor Michael wrote something about Cortisol. I looked it up on the net. One of the things cortisol is related to is hyperthyroidism, which I have previously talked about. That would explain the fatigue. There were other things too though. Like depression and hormonal stuff. And anyway, I guess the samples are to check if I don't have enough cortisol. Or too much. Or whatever. It might turn out negative, my problems might have nothing to do with cortisol after all. Oh one of the other things I found when researching cortisol was liver problems. My liver count was a little too high you will remember.

But yeah. I guess I did get more questions than answers. But the main thing is that there is something wrong. It was a good idea to go to the doctor. It's not all in my head. I don't know what the D vitamin thing is all about, if it will explain my fatigue. If it will turn out to be important. But there's something at least. I'm glad the samples didn't just come back with "oh there's nothing, stop being a baby and work harder" judgement. I do feel a little vindicated or so. Like I'm not just a lazy bum, there might actually be a reason why it's hard for me to get through even a short workday.

So we'll see how it all turns out.

Actually isn't it called "vitamin D" in English? In Danish we say it the other way around. D vitamins. It's not important I guess.

Funny thing is that I have been taking extra multi vitamins (yes, not just multi. But extra multi) since my christmas with Skye. They taste like rotten eggs on moldy bread covered in putrid ketchup. Wouldn't it be funny if they were making me vitamin deficient? I have had my tiredness problems for longer than I have been taking them though, so I wouldn't think so.

After all that fun I went to work for a little while. Worked out a little. Tired legs. Must remember to stretch, always. Went home. Stopped and shopped. Looked at the chickens at the playground. Chickens are funny. They reminded me of my summer with Skye. The crazy chickens.

And now it's weekend and being tired isn't so bad.

I'm making a timeline of my life. Of the time I have written in Plume at least. The times before that are just a dizzy haze of forgotten disappointments. But yes, to do this I have been reading my old entries. It's very strange. Seeing yourself four years ago. It's not really very nice reading. All that bitterness and anger. And what a potty mouth I had. The only thing that's nice about it is seeing how much things have changed. How far I have come, even though things aren't perfect yet. At least they're better. Much better. And nowadays I wouldn't swear unless it was absolutely positively ****ing necessary to make a point either.

Sorry.

It is amazing though. How much things have changed. I have come a long way. And there is a long way to go yet. At least I'm not running around like a headless chicken now. I think I'm on the righ path. Finally.

If only I could get to the destination soon.

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