Maybe we were born to love
Maybe we were born to love
Maybe we were born to love
Maybe we were born to love... each other

Today. Today was a pretty good day. The best in a long time really. Just the fact that it's Friday almost guarantees that it's got the 4 last days beat. Weekend is always good.

And I wasn't too exhausted in the morning. I got up. Got going. The night had been frosty. I love the look of frosted trees. Almost as good as snow. And I got my wish from yesterday. Sort of. It was snowing. A very little. But it was something. And it made me sort of smile.

I was late for work. Why? Because of evil bunnies! Super mean and evil little wonderful, cute bunnies. They were running around amongst some trees. And their evil cuteness forced me to spend 10 minutes just looking at them and also I banged my head against a really thick branch when I tried to take pictures of them. So I suffered for these:

This is the part where you go "awwww".

I wonder what they were doing there though. It was awfully cold. We don't have wild bunnies in Denmark do we? I thought we abolished wildlife in paragraph 3 of the "evil future" law. I hope they're okay. They were long gone by the time I left work of course. I'm sure they were in a hurry to get somewhere.

And work went okay. Cafer wasn't there. He was at the hospital for tests. Diabetes. So I was in charge. We had to get the floor in the hall washed quickly. I had Torben and Lillian to help me. They are a nice, slightly retarded, married couple. And for once I outranked somebody. How big I feel. But the point being that I handled things nicely and even smalltalked a little.

Then I went home and the snow was still falling a very little. Pretty snow flakes.

And I got nice things in the mail. My Zwan CDs. Brilliance. And a valentine's card from Skye. Wondreous. It arrived yesterday but I decided to wait. A valentine's card is for valentines.

It was a beautiful and sweet card. I sat down on my bed and put on the Zwan album. Listened to it while I opened and read the card. And it made me happy. The wonderful positive music. The wonderful card. The just allround nice day. I was feeling good. Things have been so hectic lately. Too many negative things. I don't want the negative things. I don't want to be sad. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be scared. I don't want to waste away my life.

I want to be happy. I want love. I want to listen to music I love. I want a future with Skye. Places to go, people to see. I want a life. I want to be alive. It's not that long ago that wasn't a given.

It's not that long ago that valentine's day meant nothing to me either. Just quiet resentment. I guess it's natural. If you're alone then it's just a reminder. It's not a nice thing to be reminded of. And nobody should be alone. I was for a long time. I was scared and scarred. I still am. But not alone. If it can happen to me, it can happen to anyone. Literally. If you think you're going to be alone always, take my word for it. You aren't. I know I wouldn't have believed it if anyone had said it to me when I was locked up and isolated in my head. But there's always hope.

Mine is called Skye.

"We got this whole beautiful future waiting for us. Next year we'll be holding hands at this time, and right now you're all that's on my mind. Thank you for everything. For making life shine, when it's dark."

See, valentine's isn't so bad. This is where you either go "awwwww" or you throw up. Your call. I tried to not make it too sugary but hey, she's just so sweet.

Getting back to Zwan... I love Zwan. The more I listen to them the more I love them. And the album is great. I would give it 6 stars out of 6. Of course I'm not very objective. The people that hate Billy Corgan too much won't like it. And there are probably people who love the Smashing Pumpkins so much that they won't like Zwan either. Because Zwan isn't the Smashing Pumpkins. And if you're going to spend your time comparing them instead of enjoying the music then you've lost. Billy moved on, so should we. Nothing will ever compare to the Smashing Pumpkins. There's no point in trying. Zwan on their own terms are great. Brilliant musicians. Enjoying what they do. Happiness and honesty.

Some people who saw the Honestly video said the smiles were forced. I don't think so. They seem genuine. They're just having fun and loving the music and it makes me happy to see and listen to. How refreshing it is compared to the machina mystery and glass & the machines of god and concept albums. Just simple, sweet pop-rock. I'm sure they won't be a huge mtv band. The album fell from 3rd to 27th in the sales chart this week. But it doesn't matter. It's music. It's good. I wish there were more like them.

It's so great that Billy is all positive now. It feels like the connection continues. As my life improves. Mirrored in the music. I always wanted to be connected to Billy. As a true fanboy. If only I could move my birthday 3 days so we could celebrate on the same day. I almost wish I got sued for dailysp because then maybe he would have sent me a note or something. "Sorry you're being sued because of my music". How much would that rock?

Yeah. I loves my Billy.

And because I'm loving-the-Zwan-alot here is my track-by-track notes/quotes for Mary Star of the Sea.

LYRIC

Here comes my faith to carry me on

There are a lot of religious aspects of the album of course. Which is why I'm now convinced that Christian Rock is the music of the future. Whee.

Paz's backing vocals are great all through the record. It adds another dimension. Like R.E.M. in the good old days.

SETTLE DOWN

Whatever I can do, I will. Cause I'm good like that

Lyrics that can make you or break you. It's not exactly deep. In fact it's hard to take serious. But can you get into the groove of Zwan? What's wrong with simplicity and straightforwardness? Nothing.

A lot of the songs seem sort of simple. Banal. Middle of the road. On the surface they can seem bland and unimportant. When I first saw the setlist I was wondering why they picked the songs they did. But it works. There's not a single bad song on the album. You just have to listen with an open mind and take it in without judging or expecting things because it's Billy Corgan.

never lose that feeling
Never, no no
Never lose your feelings
Never, that's for sure

DECLARATIONS OF FAITH

ever wonder why they kill the weak ones, baby
'cause no one really cares
someone ought to spot a good reason, baby
just why we're really here

I wonder if it's the same baby in all the songs. Nevermind.

maybe we were born to kiss another
maybe we were born to run forever
or maybe we were born to come together, or whatever
kiss me alone

This is one of my favourites. Skye and I. Maybe we were born to come together. Isn't it funny that you can go 20 years without knowing someone and then bam! suddenly she's there and she's everything. Kiss me alone.

HONESTLY

I believe the love you talk about with me

The first single. If the world is fair you should have heard it somehow. They have to get just a little airplay.

'cause when i think of you as mine
and allow myself with time
to lead into the life we want
i feel love, honestly

Skye and I. Honestly.

EL SOL

and all I wanted was you here next to me
a little sunshine and sympathy

Classic Zwan. One of the original live tunes. Any songs with tea in them always reminds me of Skye.

OF A BROKEN HEART

until I die
of a broken heart, a broken heart

Another favourite. Another classic. One of the songs from their first concerts and one that many fans instantly loved. And it's still a great ballad.

so let's see you smile
'cause I'm not impressed with your loneliness

And one of the first Zwan lines I loved. I want to smile. Forget the loneliness. I'm not alone. Not anymore.

RIDE A BLACK SWAN

so born to disagree
with people who think that life is just a memory to be denied
I'll take this picture for ages
of just you and I

Originally called The World Goes 'Round. Which I kind of like better. But what can you do. This is probably my least favourite song too. Well, one of them had to be. Doesn't mean it's bad.

remove my spirit from darkness
love become my hammer
as the world goes 'round with our love
as the world goes 'round with our love

HEARTSONG

but heart songs are still on my mind
there's never the time to write down these lines

I think this was the only song I hadn't heard live at all before I got the CD. It's very sweet and quiet.

ENDLESS SUMMER

let me go, wasting time
let me go waste my time

Excellent tune. They should release it as a single in June or July. Get a summer anthem with actual musical value.

did we go on too long
did we listen too close
to a youth built strong
with things children shouldn't know

Really, it should have been a single.

'cause when we rule, everybody dies
in an endless summer

BABY LET'S ROCK!

baby, I'm the greatest thing you've got
in a good way I should hope
in a good way I suppose

I don't want to sound presumptuous. But I think I'm one of the better things in Skye's life. She's the greatest thing in mine.

YEAH!

what I want you can't fucking kill

What's with the exclamation marks? Hehe. This one is better live. When you have the audience singing along to the "yeah!"'s. It kicks it up a notch.

DESIRE

fade away, it's all we do
fade away from the truth
desires
fade away
desires
fade away
desires

Another pretty little song. The more I listen to it the higher it ranks.

JESUS I / MARY STAR OF THE SEA

so perish every fond ambition
god and trouble are all i've known
yet how rich is my condition
god and heaven are all my own
god and heaven are all my own

I'm not going to say that combining these two songs was a stroke of genious. I would prefer to have had them as separate entities. But it does work okay. And the transition, when it shifts from Jesus to Mary is just amazing. And just in general. Mary is musical brilliance. Like I said. The best song in the universe. Okay, it's open for debate. But the guitars in this song makes me high. It makes me float up over the clouds. It makes me look down on the sea. It makes me cry rainy tears. Ehm, yeah. I kinda like it.

and everything just feels like rain
the road we're on, the things we crave
and everything just feels like rain
if I should sleep, what's left to dream
when everything feels like rain

If I could butter my toast with this song then I would never eat anything but toast.

little stars that burn the holes in my soul

All bands should be forced to have 3 guitarists.

COME WITH ME

stay the night
stay all your life
just come with me

And after a 14 minute epic how better to close than with a sweet little harmonica number? I hadn't really heard this song live much either. It was a nice surprise.

The end.

Zwan rocks!

So yeah. I am a Corgan fanboy. I get lost in his music. You can laugh at me, but I never want to lose that feeling. Never no no. And if you've dismissed Zwan, if you're disappointed in them, or if you just don't care... well too bad for you then. I hope you have a band or an artist that gives you as much as I have gotten from Billy.

I haven't even mentioned the single.

Let me mention the single. The Honestly single. Even if you have heard Honestly and hated it you should still buy the single. The two b-sides are brilliant. It's funny that those two b-side tracks are actually better than most of the songs that made the album. And that's not meant as a negative statement about the album at all. The b-sides are just great. Number of the Beast and Freedom Ain't What It Used to Be. Two songs from the acoustic Zwan concerts. The Djali Zwan. My favourite Zwan. They better release a CD of Djali songs. Those are the best. All wonderful and beautiful.

So buy the album. Buy the single. Support Zwan. And if you're not going to buy it then download the mp3s. I don't care about the sales, I just want people to hear the music.

Although downloading mp3s is wrong and illegal. Don't sue me.

Alrite, it's late. And that was a long entry. But it had Skye, Zwan and bunnies. So I hope you forgive me. I blame passion.

np: zwan - endless summer