Quickly, an entry. I don't feel much like writing today. I should thank you all for the support. It makes me happy. To know that there are people who care. And all that. You are all sweet and it helps me. So thank you.

I should also say that Skye wasn't planning to break up with me or anything. She didn't make me come see her just for that. We could have saved a lot of time, money and pain by doing it all over AIM of course. But that's just how it happened. I shouldn't have used the word "dumped" either, that wasn't appropriate really. It was a sad day for both of us, I hope I didn't make it out like she did something awful to me. I know she would have spared me all that if she could have. And I still love her, in many ways.

It's strange. Getting back to real life. Seems less real. I guess it's good that vacation is over so I don't have time to sit and brood and get more depressed. What I wouldn't give to be able to sleep in though. Today was my first longer day at work. Staying till 15.00. Six hours. To me that is an eternity. That's as long as I sat and waited for the plane at Schiphol. Ages. I talked to the people at work about Skye. Not about what happened though. They asked about how my vacation was and what I was doing in the Netherlands. So I told them I was visiting my girlfriend. I couldn't talk about the break-up though. I just couldn't deal with that. Surreal. Talking to people about Skye for the first time. After we've broken up. Sanne was saying how it must be very hard to have a long distance relationship. Yes. Very hard indeed.

The storm had ravaged the park outside the library. Fallen trees.

Everybody falls some times. At least my old buddy Treeface survived.

Tomorrow is Christian's last day at work. We'll have some cake and say bye. It sucks that he's leaving. He's such a nice guy. Wish he'd stay. We got a new guy, I think he's called Hashi or something like that. I'm not sure. A foreign guy. Seems nice. Quiet and friendly. So that's okay. There will be another guy to replace Christian as well, hope he'll be nice too.

I feel a little like I'm in limbo. But just pushing onwards. If I keep going then things will be okay.