I will repeat myself. I will repeat myself again.

I'm tired. What else is new. I also have a powerful headache and I'm feeling a little sick. Pity me.

I'm always tired. Maybe I should go to the doctor and get it checked out. The problem with that is that the doctor might find something. And that would make it very hard to ignore the problem. Denial is so much easier if you don't know. Or something. I'm too tired to think.

Too tired to keep the entry going. I'll finish off with pictures instead. Not of the beautiful kind, but it saves me writing too much. I'm dizzy, my head is spinning.

That's Cafer and NewGuy Bassim talking. Bassim signed his contract today, he'll be there for 6 months at least. I'm still educating him, showing him how to do stuff. I will never get used to being the experienced one. Most of the time I don't have a clue what I'm doing anyway.

Isn't it nice and green, though? It's quite pretty when the sun is shining. It shined a lot today. When the dark clouds didn't block it. We were outside for a while, not doing too much. I walked around in the grass and tried to take pictures of these flower things:

You know the kind. I'm sure all kids pick them and blow on them to make all the stalks or seed or whatever it is fly. All kids should.

They are fascinating things.

And those are bright and yellow. I think they're considered weeds (as in undesirable growths not as in drugs) but I like them. They colour up the grass so well. The more colours the merrier.

Well, I ended up writing too much anyway. My headache comes and goes. Earlier I was lying down and I put my hand behind my head, rested my head like that. And I could feel it pulsating. Like it was pumping blood up there through one big vein. Thump thump. The telltale bloody heart.

I better go before I start hallucinating. Ta ta.

np: zwan - heartsong (030401)