2001-11-25 - 11:33 p.m. - +

Ungggh. Stupid sunday. Never long enough.
time is never time at all
I'm not sure if I feel despair or indifference. I don't want to go to work tomorrow. Ever.
everneverever
I was sitting in the shower today. And I have another strange shower habit. I like to take a towel with me in the shower. And then put it on my head. And listen to the water thundering. It sounds like a train going by. Except it never stops. And I wasn't sure if I was going mad or falling asleep. I couldn't decide that either. The insisting sound of water driving me on. Driving me crazy.
crying in the shower
Another thing you can do with a towel on your head is to wrap it around so no air can get in. And every time you take a breath the towel moves closer to your face as the air slowly runs out. And it wraps around you tightly. Now it's just a towel, I doubt you could suffocate in there. But you can imagine it's a plastic bag or a tiny room and it gets harder and harder to breathe... And you hear the magnified sound of water against you.
fawlty towels
Lean against the wall and listen to the water. With your eyes closed. With the air running out. There's nothing like falling water to make me feel desperate. Maybe that's why I like rain.
rain down on me
How dramatic. So fresh and so clean clean.
snicker
But apart from going crazy in the shower not much has happened today. I worked a bittle on my dailysp site. Got it back and running. Mostly. Sometimes I feel like dumping it. It was supposed to be small and easy and not take any time. Hah. I've uploaded every single song 700 times. Circa. But I still love it so whatareyagonnado. Still haven't had time to get my pictures upnrunning.
almost gone
I took a little break and completed Monkey Island 2.
big whoop

yeah, don't forget to clixy
Weet. I don't know why people don't like that ending. I think it roxorblades.
I gotta get me 3 and 4
And then I watched Buffy and Angel and Friends. Weet. Seriesøndag. And ignored that Brøndby lost their first home game this season. Boo.
(c) Young 2001
And now I wish I hadn't watched all that. But it's okay. Life's not funny if we're not hurting.
infinite sadness
So anyway.
as I was saying
Tomorrow I will go buy a 60 gigabyte hard drive. I will need some water to replace my money. I'm going to call work and ask if it's okay to come in late. Monday. Computer course. Sitting around doing nothing. I'm going crazy. Maybe. Usually it's not a problem. I'll go to Bilka in the morning. Then a couple of hours of work. Then mental institution. Bilka is where I bought my first extra hard drive. I can do that. It's no problem. Just calling Bent. Strange new bus. New technology. Everything will be fine. And if it's not then I'll just go sit in the shower for a couple of hours.
60 big ones
I can't believe there are people who don't pick up their phones when they're a lifeline on Who Wants To Be A Millionaire. It amazes me. I've seen it happen a couple of times. Everytime my mother watches it in the background and they call up a lifeline I just have to stop and listen. Just hoping that someone will leave them hanging. Yeah, I'm sorry I was out peeling potatoes. Did you win anything?
werdos
That just makes me so upset that I have to go and stare at the wall for a couple of hours.
yesssss
Bye.
bye bye bluebird
np: pumpkins - spaceboy (921211)

...I don't need... I don't care... please...
when you lie to break my heart
when you lie, i'll break, i'll break, to break

back and forth

clix




try to understand
the ones I love and their demands
so unfair when they can't see
that I'm the boy who really needs

your love i suppose

I just want peace
diaryland
to be free at last