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Well, a big pile of nothing happened today. Sometimes it seems like the days all melt together. It just becomes a quiet river flowing along undisturbed. No matter where you are we can still hear you when you drown.

Oh, one thing though, I phoned up the company that sent me a bill for a cd I paid for 6 months ago and... the number doesn't exist anymore! What kinda idiots puts a phone number that doesn't exist anymore in their goddamn letter! Morons. So now I sent them an email instead. But it seems that they're really incompetent and I'll probably end up paying for the stupid cd once again... why? because I'm spineless, that's why! It's The Lost Highway soundtrack by the way. Bought it because of Eye... the smashing pumpkins of course...

I hate greatest hits collections. I hate the way artists always put one or two new songs in so all the fans have to buy all the old songs all over again. I hate music today. I'm full of anger and resentment. I'm a ticking time bomb. I'm neither her nor there, just right beside you, I'll be under your stars forever... it doesn't matter.

It doesn't matter.

"We all love pics of blowjobs and handjobs. Lets post and enjoy. All sizes, shapes and ages (look out grandma). "
...oooh-kaaay.....

So last night I mentioned how I discovered that I still loved the Mellon Collie songs to death. And this morning something cool happens. The only cool thing I've seen on MTV in years. Literaly. There was a "3 from 1" with 3 smashing pumpkins songs from Mellon Collie: Tonight Tonight, 1979 and Bullet With Butterfly Wings. It was great. It's funny, Tonight Tonight is one of their biggest hits and the video won them so many awards... but it's never been one of my favourites. It's an amazing song, especially acoustic version, but it's one of the few sp songs I've gotten a bit tired of... and while the video is fun and all it's just not one of the best. Now 1979, that rocks. I'm not homophobic but I've never had any openly gay persons in my life so I probably have some stereotypes and issues and such. But I'm not afraid to say that I think Billy Corgan is beautiful in 1979. The closeups in the car. Damn that's good lookin'. And then there was Bullet... the first sp video I ever saw. Billy in his Zero shirt. Ahw, damn, those memories... I still believe what is lost can never be saved... I wish they'd show more sp videos. I wish I wish I wish that something would happen.

Og nu vil jeg skrive lidt på mit eget modersmål bare for at genere alle engelske og amerikanske skønheder der måtte læse dette. Hvad mon de tror jeg skriver? Eller er de bare ligeglade? Hmmmm...

haha, I really hate it when mama dear comes into the living room late at night and I'm sitting at the computer not wearing a watch because there's no one around to see the scars on my wrists. Haha. It's such a nice little adrenalin rush, knowing that if I don't position my arm right everything's exposed. Oh yes, I do love life.

hmm.hmmm.mhmmm. Here's a link to doll-hair's great diary. Go read it.

g'night, I'm just as confused as you but at least I know what it meant.

NP: U-Turn (oh yeah)

...cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need...