My heart won't stop beating. I guess that's a good thing. Medically speaking. Still it would be nice if it just slowed down a little.

I'm nervous. I'm scared. I can't believe it's tomorrow. I'll go to bed soon. When I get up there will be 5 hours of waiting. And then I'm picking up Skye.

So tomorrow at 4 pm (that's about 10 am eastern american time zone thingie) you should send positive thoughts. Because then I will be meeting her. Then it will happen.

No, I don't really have any profound thoughts about that right now. My mind is jelly and my stomach is whatever would be just below jelly in the food pyramid.

I still have to do a little cleaning up tomorrow. And I have to obsessively check all time tables and plans over and over just to be sure that everything goes well.

My mother called. Still being sweet. She was at my dad's brother's place (is that my uncle? I can never remember). He works at the airport. So he had tips and tricks. Every little thing helps. I haven't taken the train in 15 years. I've never been at the airport. I've never met anyone from the net before. I've never met anyone before. I've never kissed a girl.

It's amazing how many things I can cross off my "never done before" list at the end of this week.

If I can get some paintball and water skiing in then maybe I can throw the list away alltogether.

I can't believe this is happening.

I can't believe this is happening.

I cannot believe.. this.. is happening.

I can't believe this is going to happen.

I can't believe I don't shut up.

Okay. Okay okay. Okay. I should be going. You know it's going to be funny to say "see you tomorrow" to Skye. Hehe. A whole new meaning. I don't know how much I'll update tomorrow. Probably just something like "Hey Skye is here and for once I don't want to spend the whole day at the computer. Bye". Thank you all for your support and well wishes. It might just be ok. It might just be.

I can't believe this is happening.

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