the river flows.ever she flows

im still drowning

oooooooooh.... nevermind....

I was reading Ravenglitter's diary (thanks for signing my analyzer!). And she was talking about her kid, David, who'd fallen asleep wrapping one arm around her... oooh, that's just so sweet and nice and almost makes me ache inside. Sounds lovely. I'm 22, I oughta be heading there. And I know I won't. Bittersweet. It's not like I'm ready for a kid, I probably never will be. But I remember the times when family members had kids. Holding them. So tiny. Watching them grow. Yeah, even if you're dying inside you still see beauty in some things. Thank you Ravenglitter for making me remember that for a while there.

The finalists of the Machina Mystery competition have been revealed. And I'm very shocked that my entry: "Machina is the story of a rockstar gone mad"... didn't win. Oh well. I love the pumpkins. I love and admire Billy. But jesus christ what a load of bollocks that contest is. That's just my opinion. I could've done without that. Couldn't even be bothered reading the finalists' entries. The few things I read made me laugh. I just want to get that over with so we can have the two final shows and a proper goodbye. And let the Machina Mystery rest in peace. But Billy I still love you (in a completely non-homosexual way of course)!

Yay! A project. Just as I had nothing to do I get a tape request. So now I can spend the night doing pumpkiny things. Rawk! Ah, yeahhhhhh.

g'night, I'm way too busy to make a good diary entry. Can't keep me away from my pumpkins!

NP: Pumpkins - Jellybelly (you're forever to me)

...this time I need to know...