I will try to keep it short today. Shorter, at least.

It's been an okay day. Nothing outstanding. But the main thing is that I have felt no depression or phobia. And I did get a couple of things accomplished. So I will count this as another good day.

It's strange almost. Feeling okay. Being sort of happy. For what, 6 days now? I never really thought of it as an option. That it was possible to feel okay for that long. It's like a surprise. I find myself standing in the street thinking "hmm, this is working". Why didn't I do this before? Why didn't I hang on to feeling good? I guess it doesn't work like that. You can't just "decide" to feel good. Or can you? I'm not sure. I'm trying to decide to keep feeling good. I do know that I will get a down period again some time. But it's a valuable lesson. That it's possible to feel okay for extended periods of time. Maybe then life is worth living? That is a good lesson indeed.

The two main events today was after work. I went and voted.

Nothing very interesting. I'm not too excited about participating in the democratic process. Mostly because I know my side will lose. But it's nice to be able to vote. There was a time when I just couldn't. When you don't care about your own life then you don't care about the world much. And when it's hard to just leave your room then it's very hard to walk into a big room with lots of people watching you. It's good at least to feel good enough to be able to handle those things now.

After I voted I went and got my hair cut. That was nice. Spontaneously doing that. Normally I plan it in advance, book a time, take a day off so I can go early when there aren't many people around. But today I just swung in there and got my locks shortened. Good stuff. Usually I wait till my hair gets so long and unwieldy that I have no choice, it's nice to just do it because I feel like it, because I want it. Not because I've waited six months and have to do it.

So those were two good things really. Nothing spectacular, but good. And then people walking their dogs of course.

Now I'm just watching the election coverage. It's going pretty much like I expected. Unless something outrageous happens then the government will stay in power. Four more years. Bloody hell. Tax cuts will buy you anything.

I know it sucks that Denmark has such a huge tax burden. But there's a reason for it. We have one of the best welfare systems in the world. We are a good country. I don't like the "every man for himself" idea, we help each other. We help the weak. I am weak now, I need help. If I get strong then I'll be damn happy to help the next weak ones in line. Right now I am a burden to society. But society is going to help me get to a place where I will be a productive member. I appreciate that. That's how I think it should be. We live in Denmark, for christ's sake. Most of us are criminally blessed compared to other parts of the world. We don't need to grab every fucking dollar we can, most of us will never know what it's like to go to bed hungry.

I guess the world wouldn't work if it was run by the likes of me. I don't have what it takes to make hard decisions. I just want us all to live in peace and harmony. And you know that would be a disaster if we tried it.

Maybe in another four years. Unless there will be a war or two to lie about. Who cares about that.

No, no. I'm fine. Politics always brings up the cynic in me, but I'm not going to let that bring me down. I am happy and I won't let anything as silly as power get me sad.

Fin.