Metallica Rooooolz, d00d! Go Lars!

It's sad how Star Trek deprived Denmark is. We've had some of the original series, some of TNG, a season of DS9. No Voyager. Good thing I have Swedish tv. They've showed all of TNG, and I agree with merilily that it's the best. And they're in the process of showing Voyager these years. But they haven't even reached that 7 borg yet. So there must be a while to go. I wanna be Data when I grow up.. I'll need to get a tan though. And maybe Geordi would be more appropriate since I'm practically blind already. And I'll end up bald like Picard soon. Maybe I should grow a goatee? I'll be like the whole cast of TNG rolled into one! Amazing!§!§!

Earlier today I suddenly got the urge to lie in a dark room and listen to Adore. It was great. With an open window so I could see the tree outside. And feel the night. And feel Adore. I recommend it. It's great for what ails ya.

in a dream we are connected, siamese twins at the wrist... Allthough I've had countless requests (well, one and a half...) I won't reveal the dream. Sorry. I'll let it fade. It was nice. I'll keep it for myself, selfish as I am :-)

Who's real? All that you suffer is all that you are. Drink from the reasons that keep you alive. We never listen, real love will listen. I always make myself cry. That last line wasn't a quote.

I managed to forget my watch today. I like to take it off when I'm on my own and no one's there to see the scars. I ate dinner in my room (we only have dinners together at selected few holidays and special occasions) and I took out my plate. Not wearing a watch. It was only on my way back to my room that I noticed I wasn't wearing a watch. And my mother had been right beside me where I put the plate. A perfect opportunity to spot the dark secrets I carry (how dramatic, don't you think?). But I guess she didn't. Or she just pretends she didn't. I still think they know and chose to live in denial, just as I. I never let on that I was on a sinking ship, I never let on that I was down. And so on. Actually the scars aren't that bad anymore, they've faded a tiny little. But they're still there. Always there. . And so on. Another song another emotion as Starla June would say. my reflection, dirty mirror, there's no connection to myself.

g'night, gotta go rape my hand... I better have naughty dreams tonight, I need 'em...

np: pumpkins - in the arms of sleep

...I need someone to ease my mind, but sometimes a someone is so hard to find...