I am beat. Tired. I walked around for 40 minutes today. Looking for the anxiety clinic. Dammit. I feel stupid. I had to take another bus than usual and pretty much got lost out there. I used the route planner on the bus company's website. But either I misunderstood it or else they gave me false directions. I think they gave me false directions. But that just doesn't make sense. Why would they do that? Grumble.

Oh well. My therapist had forgotten that we had rescheduled our appointment, so she was 10 minutes late. I'm not the only one messing up at least. We only had 10 minutes left to talk. Went over my homework. Social training. And she gave me a "how to have conversations" folder. Some very basic things about talking to other people. I need that. We have sort of uncovered that I have two main problems: 1) I have social phobia. 2) I have never really learnt how to talk to other people. And those two things sort of feed off of each other. When I don't know how to talk to people my social phobia increases and that makes me avoid talking to people and that means I don't learn how to talk to people. You see? A bad circle. So it's not just a matter of dealing with my social phobia, it's also a matter of just learning how to do social things. If that makes sense.

A long process, I'm sure.

Nothing interesting happened at work. I'm working on a little poster for a lecture. By Iben Hjejle. Anyone know her? She was in the movie High Fidelity with John Cusack, Jack Black, Catherine Zeta-Jones, Tim Robbins and more. Yes, I'm reading from imdb, I haven't even seen the movie. Although I want to. Some time. She was in the Danish sit-com Langt Fra Las Vegas too. And in the new Klovn. Clown. Which is supposed to be "inspired" by Curb Your Enthusiasm. If only it didn't air on that sucky TV2 Zulu. I can't stand it.

Aaanyway, that wasn't important. But she's coming to give that lecture at gyngen. Maybe I should see if I can catch some pictures of her. To follow my Kent Nikolajsen and Thera Hoeymans successes.

Boring. Let's go to the playground instead!

Aw, Magnet Magnet Magnet. I love Magnet. He was very active today. Jumping up and down and all around. For no apparent reason. It wasn't because his mum was jumping. Wasn't because the lambs were in the way. Wasn't because some big human was teasing. I choose to think he was just jumping because he's a happy little goat kid. He's very limber. It's fun, he jumps up in the air and twists his back in one direction and his head in the other. It makes me want to jump around too.

He was also acting very puppyish. Sniffing the ground, sniffing everything curiously. No wonder they call him the goat puppy.

It's quite adorable.

Hehe.

Magnet may have taken the crown as the new cutest goat but Mads is still the king of jumping up on stuff. There is no way to keep him down.

The fireplace seems to be a good place for resting.

Maybe coal just smells good?

Mads at the fountain again. The temperatures are ever rising, summer is around the corner. But there's plenty of water for everyone.

I missed everybody.

I love that place.

I feel so at home. I wish I could just sit up there and look at the animals all day. I wish.

So tomorrow I'm going to the hospital. For an examination. Cross your fingers for me. I'm trying to keep my hopes down. But darn, it would mean so much if it goes well.

I'll see. No matter what, I'll still have my lovely animals to go and see. Life ain't all bad.