I was the first one at work today. Lights off and door locked. Good thing they gave me a key yesterday. Yes, I have my own key for our office now. They better treat me well or I'll plunder the place.

Well, they are treating me well of course. No complaints. Things are going well. Just trying not to think about loneliness. And stuff.

There was some event going on downtown today. I'm not sure what it was. Maybe some charity thing. I was going to the bus and a girl stopped me and asked if I had some time. I didn't though, I needed to catch my bus. So I said no. And then she said something like "but you can have a hug". I guess they were giving out hugs to people to get them to donate or sign something. I'm not sure. The thought of hugging a strange girl just made me rush for the bus even more. But a couple of minutes later I found myself thinking about hugging a girl. Wanting to hug someone. This emptiness inside. Needing something. Wanting someone close. Maybe I should have gone back and gotten a hug. Didn't hurt that it was a gorgeous, dark-skinned beauty. I bet they got a lot of donations/signatures/whatever.

Somebody hug me.

I'm like an old, abandoned teddy bear lying by the side of the bed. How can you not hug me and love me? Don't be heartless.