My mind is grey. The leaves are falling.

I managed to stay pretty long at work. Longer than I have the last 2-3 weeks. So that's good. It was mindnumbingly dull though. That's not so good. But at least I'm making an effort.

I was sitting and listening to my music in our break when one of the others came and poked me. An African guy. Jean-Jacques. He speaks French with one of the others. But he spoke Danish to me. He said that I seemed to be good with the computers. And asked me if I could do some hacking for him. Haha. Turns out he had downloaded some program. WinDVD I think. And he wanted to find a serial number for it or something. Not exactly hacking, but okay. I told him I couldn't help him though. You never know if he's an undercover cop just waiting to bust people. Also I have no clue where to get serial numbers for WinDVD. I should have told him to try google.

But that's as much as happened today. I came home and almost cried. Watched Futurama DVDs. Ate the last of momma's soup. My head hurts and I'm so tired. And every now and then this sea of sadness comes over me. But I'm staying alive so far.

Skye is off on holiday. So I won't see her before Friday. It's strange when she's not here. I hope we'll be able to meet for christmas. I hope I will not mess up.

But now there's really not much for me to do at the computer. It's empty here without her. I guess I'll set XP to defrag my hard drive and go lie down instead. I wonder how long the defrag will take. I've never done it in XP before. It took ages on my old computer. But I'll leave it overnight. I have a 20gb and a 40gb drive to defrag. It makes me paranoid. If I don't update tomorrow then it's because my hard drives have exploded and I'm out selling blood and kidneys to get money for a new one.

It could happen.

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