hmmmmm.....

not much to say

Today I had a brief period of deep meditation over wether or not I should get cable instead of 56k. I decided not to. I need a flatrate. The cable company we get our tv from offer a flexrate. How clever. That means if you have a lot of traffic you'll have to get your calculator out to see how much you need to pay. And I can't stand that. It might even turn out to be cheaper to have that cable instead of 56k... but I just can't stand the flexrate, no no no. No FlexRate for me. And anyways, I need a new hard drive.

fascinating fascinating, I know.

We got the season finale of Dawson's Creek season 3 this week. I'm sure in America you've already started season 4 or something. It'll be forever before we get that. Well, it was kinda sad wasn't it. No more Katie for a long time. I still like watching her. Aw. She's a cutie. She's going to be naked in one of her next films too. Wow. If I'd heard that a year ago I'd been sad and said "oh Katie no, don't do that". Now I just can't wait to see her tits. Honestly. I bet they're magnificent. Well all breasts are great to me. I like them. I'm funny that way.

Speaking of Katie Holmes, my former obsession, I downloaded a couple of songs from napster. I love On My Own.. from Les Miserables. I can't believe she sang that herself. That was one of my favourite moments on the videotape I had of all her scenes. I actually had several videotapes like that. It wouldn't have been a proper obsession without them. I almost miss them, I've taped over them now. Very symbolic how I filled those tapes with other things just like I filled my life with other things than her. What a load of crap. But that's what you get when you try to rationalize your own weirdo behaviour. Very disturbing, haha. Anyway I still think she's beautiful and nice, and I don't care what you say. Bite me.

I guess that's it. If you wonder why I bothered making this an entry then you probably missed my great explanation. It's here. And here is my great pumpkins tribute. Don't you just love that picture of Billy? That's just so beautiful... well, I think so... but then the smashing pumpkins are making me cry these days. The world is more dead than it ever was, we're all zombies with no direction and no call, going straight to hell. Or something like that. (But listen to the piano intro of If There Is a God and don't get just a tear or two in your eye... Your heart must be made of stone if you can do that. Really.)

G'night, oh and let me wish you a merry christmas... it's not a day too soon.

np: pumpkins - Starla (2nd to last concert - live - fuck yeah!!!!!FUCK YEAH!!!!!! No more tears)

...serve yourself, no one else can do for you like you and no one else fails like me, and in my eyes I burn alive, fly like a bird, no more words, just you and I, high in the sky...

FUCK YEAH!!!