It seems like I've spend the last week being tired. But at least now the weekend is over. Hooray.

Next week should be very interesting. Very interesting indeed. I have to go to the bank tomorrow. I'm not happy about that. But I just hope it will go okay. That I can transfer that damn money. And then it's a slow countdown for Friday and Skye will be here and everything that's gone before will be wiped away and the world will be new. This star thing. I don't get it.

The closer it gets the more I look forward to it. I'm sure I won't be able to get rid of the nervous restlessness in my stomach. I'm sure it'll only get worse. Isn't it funny that some of the greatest things that can happen to you can also make you feel incredibly nauseous and scared? Hehe. Well, not that funny. But I've felt worse.

Hmmm. Skye's mother thinks I'm evil. Okay, I'm hardly a paragon of virtue. But still. I wouldn't consider myself evil. Chaotic Neutral maybe.

She's afraid I'm going to rape Skye. Mhm. I'm too scared to even have sex on the "first date". Not that I don't understand the concern of course. I just saw a "60 minutes" the other day and there was some guy who allegedly raped and killed a 13 year old after they met online. And here I am, 5 years older than Skye and we only know each other from the net. But we've known each other for 2 years. It's taken me that long just to get to the point where I could say yes to even meeting her. I doubt a rapist would pick a girl from another country and wait 2 years for it to happen.

Why does everyone always think I'm evil? Skye's mum, the mail man, the people at the gas station. It's always the same. That was supposed to be a joke by the way.

Speaking of evil and gas stations... how scary is that sniper thing? Random evil. How do you defend yourself against that?

Yeah, it's a beautiful world. Let's be careful out there.

np: pumpkins - blue skies bring tears (acoustic demo)