Hey, I'm talking to all the girls now. All the girls who are in school. I have a request. I want to ask you to do something. I know you don't owe me anything and I know you have no reason to listen. But it's worth a shot... Do a good deed. Do it for me. Here goes:

You know that guy? That awkward kid in corner. The shy one who doesn't talk much. The lonely kid. The outsider. The one you'd never hang out with. Well, one of these days... give him a kiss. Just a little one. Doesn't have to be in public. Just pull him to the side and tell him that you know he exists... you don't have to pretend you're close friends or that you love him. Just give him a quick kiss.
He'll remember that always. You'll live in his heart and mind forever. Wouldn't that be amazing. To be a part of his history? When karma is counted it'll weigh on your good side. When he sits alone in his room and cries he'll think of you. Maybe you'll be one of the things that keep him alive. Maybe he'll one day write poetry about you. Maybe you'll change his life. Maybe not. But would it kill you to try?

Let me show you the shape oy my heart? What does that even mean?!?!?!?!

You gotta listen to proper music! Like The Smashing Pumpkins! And that leads me to tonight's Pumpkins Radio:

EYE

I lie, I wait
I stop, I hesitate
I am, I breathe
I meant, I think of me

Is it any wonder I can't sleep?
All I have is all you gave to me
Is it any wonder I found peace through you?
Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself be damned
Turn away from light
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough

I taste, I love
I come, I bleed enough
I hate, I'm not
I was, I want too much

Is it any wonder I can't sleep?
All I have is all you gave to me
Is it any wonder I found peace through you?
Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself be damned
Turn away from light

It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch

I'm running seriously out of hard drive (not harddisk as I've learned) space. I can't even keep any websites in my cache, temporary internet files or whatever. Everything needs to reload. I won't be able to fit many more songs on it.... It's bad. Real bad. So I plan to buy a new one. Did some research. And I'm fucked. I don't know anything. I'll screw it up for sure. It's weird, I've had computers for 10 years at least and still I'm a technophobe. When it comes to opening up the pc... I can't, I know I'll mess it up. It's baaaaad. But I need that new hard drive... I have to. Dammit. And then there's the money. And the need to leave the house. It's baaaad. Isn't life complicated? I know you all feel so bad for me... I know you care. And don't think I don't love you all for it. My honeyz. We're starcrossed lovers, you and I. The girl in my dreams. The one who dreams of me. To love and hold you, don't say I haven't told you so. Blew, blew away...

I'll leave now. Run naked in the cold Scandinavian night. It's cold but it's all right. I know I'll find you there. You and I will meet. So kiss me once. Kiss him once. Don't let me run alone. Don't let him sit alone in the corner all his life. Don't be a reason for him to die. In the cold scandinavian night.

sigh

NP: Pumpkins - Glynis (And with these tears of respect, conforms a sadness, for anyone who's ever lost one who's dearest, and the love of a friend)

...everything i need from you, i need it for myself...