Life is funny some times. Like when you're in the middle of trying to save the files on one of your hard drives. And then suddenly the other one decides to drop out of existence too. Haha. Funny.

I wasn't laughing though. But I was 5 minutes later. Thank God. After I had opened up the computer and frantically pushed every cable in sight into its socket. And upon restarting the computer the second hard drive worked. But I had a good 5-10 minutes in hell where it seemed (once again) like I had lost everything.

It kind of feels like someone is sending me messages. Yesterday it was the TV that was out for a while. Now my second hard drive. After the crash of the first one. Someone is softly whispering in my ear "I CAN CRUSH YOU ANY TIME I WANT TO. I CAN KILL YOUR TV, YOUR COMPUTER, ANYTHING. You're mine. You're dead. I'm toying with you for a while just for the fun of it".

No wait, that was just the neighbours talking.

I don't know. For those 5-10 minutes earlier I felt very, very tired. Of everything. Things just seem to keep going wrong all the time. And it may only be little things but they're important to me nonetheless. I just want to save as much of my music as I can, is that too much to ask?

How fragile we are. Well, our computers are anyway. I've gone years amassing mp3s. Tonnes of music. And the idea of losing it all has just been a bad dream once in a blue moon. And now it's here. For a second I was thinking that my 3rd and original hard drive would probably die too and I wouldn't even be able to use my computer.

I guess it's my tower of rabble. I mean Babel. 3 hard drives in one computer. 100 gigabytes. Man is not meant to tempt fate like that. What I really should do is get rid of my original hard drive. It's slow, it's old and it only holds 10 gigs. If I got rid of that I could make do with 2 hard drives instead of 3. 2 big ones instead of one small, one big and one huge. But then I would have to reinstall windows. And somehow that seems like something that would break me down in every way. Don't ask me why. It's just a computer. It's not whispering in my ears. It's not anticipating my failure in some way. I'm sure.

What's in the news today? Michael Jackson holding his kid out over a railing to impress the crowd. Denmark beating Poland in a soccer friendly, Tomasson just keeps scoring. My tax predictions, another year of minimum income. Poul Nyrup Rasmussen stepping down as head senator of the social democrat republic. Which makes Anders Fogh the Emperor of the New Order. We just need Darth McVader too. No, that's Pia Kjærsgaard I guess. Danish politics desperately needs a Luke Skywalker. They fall for promises of tax stops and then they complain when the hospitals have to close down. What do I know anyway? It's a crazy world out there.

I'm a Bed Time Care Bear. You know what that means. Nite nite.

np: thom yorke - like spinning plates (021027)