That smile...wow. I know now that I'm not in love with her. I needed something to cling to and there she was on the thv screen. I get sick when I hear people say they're in love with Britney Spears... but this was the same. Except she so much "better" than Britney. Ah, I was foolish. I know I never really loved her. But damn, when she pulls out that smile... I can see why I chose her as my object of fixation. She has the prettiest smile in the world. I still think she's special. I still hope she'll get an oscar someday. She helped me. And I'm not obsessed with her anymore. I just love that smile.

I saw the strangest thing as I was going to bed last night. I was rewinding a videotape cause I'd taped something. So I took the tape out and reached out to turn off the tv... and the last thing I saw... it was some kinda infomercial. Probably for some hair removal product. Because the guy on the screen... he had half a beard! D00d, I'm telling ya. Half his face was clean shaven and the other has a nice little moustache and beard. It was weird. The left side was clean and the right dirty. It was like some split personality thing. Faschinating, really.

why the fuck did you bother going down here?

Oh, I would've done it too

I forgive you

just don't step on my blue suede shoes