I know it's stupid but I'm on holiday now. I don't care. 1-2-3 days. I can't wait. My holiday starts now. What are they going to do? Fire me? Apathy is underrated.

Now I'm going to do as little as possible for as long as possible. I wonder how many of the deadly sins I do commit on a daily basis. Apathy isn't a sin, right? Laziness. Sloth. I don't know.

Tune in, drop out. It's party time.

But today itself was verrily uneventful. I watched soccer with my dad. Well, I was sitting at the computer and he was sitting on the couch in the other end of the room and we couldn't see each other. But the tv was turned so we both could watch. A beautiful father-son moment.

Unfortunately Germany won. How boring. I would have preffered to see South Korea in the final. But there you go. The World Cup is almost over just as my vacation starts. It's not right. They don't make World Cups like they used to.

I don't need your help, I can hurt myself.

Sometimes I get visions of myself being happy. My girl, my cat. In my house. Sometimes I can almost reach out and grab it. Yeah.

Sometimes it slips away.

I'm disappointed that my rock star dreams are going nowhere. I've got so many great possible songtitles. All I need is a band and a guitar and some voice lessons and I'm there. I don't know what's holding me back.

np: muse - sunburn (000901)