imagine me and you
I do
I think about you day and night
it's only right
to think about the girl you love
and hold her tight
so happy together

I have a live Weezer cover of this song on my mp3 player. It has taken up a new meaning after the breakup.

I wanted to write a long entry now. Despite my morning tantrum I had a pretty good day at work. And I had pictures and stuff. But time keeps on slipping. I have been filling in psych tests for tomorrow.

Beck Anxiety Inventory
Beck Depression Inventory
Inventory of Interpersonal Problems
Struktureret Klinisk Interview til DMS-IV AXIS II personlighedsforstyrrelser
Symptom checklist 90
Defense Style Questionnaire

Damn, that was a lot of questions. But at least it's done now. I have to bring them all with me tomorrow morning. I'll be getting up early. My appointment is at 8.15. Guess I have to get up at 7 then. I hate mornings. Why were there no questions about that on any of the tests? "Do you have a hard time getting up in the morning?". Seems to me that should be a standard question on some of these tests. If they can ask me if I think I can control other people with my thoughts, if I before the age of 15 inflicted pain on animals and if I believe peope are purely good or evil.. then why not ask me about my mornings? I think that is essential for knowing who I am and what my problems are.

Anyway. Tomorrow morning. Off to the Klinik For Angst Og Personlighedsforstyrrelser. The clinic for anxiety and personality disorders. Out in Risskov. The psychiatric hospital I guess. The famous looney bin. I'm a nut.

Well, I hope they can help me. I think my medication is helping somewhat. I haven't felt a lot of anxiety or social phobia lately. But I still have lots of problems with dealing with other people and being around other people and talking to other people and just you know, anything concerning other people. It would be nice to get some big progress. I miss Skye. I don't want to be alone. I want a life.

It had to be
the only one for me is you
and you for me
so happy together
I can see me lovin' nobody but you
for all my life