I woke up to a very, very cold morning. The lawn outside was frozen white. Frosty. Winter is right around the corner. And I don't mind at all.

Not only was it very cold but the TV signal was gone too. I usually sit in my bed and rock back and forth for 5-10 minutes watching random TV before I go to work. Repeats or news or whatever happens to be on. This morning it was static. That didn't stop me from sitting there a little of course. To the sound of the static. Breathing the cold air. Could be worse. My eyes could have popped out. Or something. Anyway, I was convinced it was the workers outside who had cut the cable. I went around all day thinking "No TV. No hard drive. Everything always goes wrong". Because I like depressing myself. But when I came home from work the TV was working again. That's ok. I like depressing myself without reason too.

I was a little late for work actually. Because the batteries for my camera died. So i spent 10 minutes trying out old batteries that were lying around. 7 minutes late. When I walked in to the driveway the boss was standing there. That's when you start thinking things like "oh my god I'm 7 minutes late and he's come out to kill me for it". But no, it's a very informal place. It's almost like no one cares if you're 7 minutes late at all. Which isn't always the best thing for me I think. Self-discipline is not one of my strongest traits. But anyway. Bent the Boss was not outside to hunt me down. He was getting ready to haul empty bottles to Bilka and get the deposit. Cafer was there too. Still unshaven but looking better. I overheard him telling Karen that his brother-in-law had a heart-attack. Apart from that I don't think he's talked about it at all.

But we all brought out the many cases of empty bottles and took them to Bilka. A nice car ride in the blistering cold. Well, we were better off than the poor horse that was standing outside on a field. I wonder if horses like the cold. Maybe no one just ever asked them if they wanted some really warm underwear while they were outside grazing in the cold.

I think warm underwear should be an important part of animal rights. Human rights too really.

Nothing else of interest happened at work. It smelled a little christmassy because they were baking christmas cookies. Deck the halls with foul of holly. Some day I have to find out how that really goes.

Back home I tried watching End of Days to distract myself from the hard drive problem. I only made it halfway through it. I find that sort of disappointing. Have I grown up so much that I can't watch an Arnold Schwarzenegger movie now? That is profoundly sad. What happened to the dumb boy who loved Kindergarten cop? My love of bad taste is failing.

As is my hard drive. Still. If you hadn't noticed. I really need to get all the copying done. So I can try to recover the lost files. And format the damn thing. I wonder if I can use the hard drive again. I wonder if I should. It's bound to fail again in the future isn't it? Dammit. I don't even dare play too much music because I'm afraid it'll bring up the hard drive whir of death. But luckily I'm pretty happy with the playlist I have running. It's beautiful. Here:

Jewel - Hands
Thom Yorke & R.E.M. - E-bow the Letter
Radiohead - How I Made My Millions
Radiohead - Motion Picture soundtrack (acoustic live)
Thom Yorke - Like Spinning Plates (021027)

Those are some damn good songs. They make me happy in a sad depressed way.

You know what the best cure for depression and general tiredness is? Having your girlfriend show you pictures of herself as a kid. I don't think I've said the word "aw" so many times in one conversation before. Funny how it takes someone else to warm your heart when it's feeling cold. There's nothing I could have done myself that would have made me feel so good.

Life is not always as bad as you make it sound, Plume.

np: radiohead - motion picture soundtrack