Vacation slowly running out. I will try not to whine. There's still tomorrow of course. It's not all bad.

Last night all the streetlights in the neighbourhood went out. It has happened a few times before. It always creeps me out. You don't think about it normally but even at night there is always lots of light when you live in the cities. But when the streetlights go out and it gets late and everybody goes to bed then suddenly there is real darkness. Funny that it feels unnatural. A night is supposed to be naturally dark.

It always makes me wonder if we're being invaded or if there's going to be a crime spree. First thing they would do is turn out the lights...

In order to beef up the entry a little why don't we take a traditional Sunday poll?

Alritey then

The polls are open for 24 hours. Let your voice be heard. I forgot to put "eternal darkness" as an option. Oh well.

My mood has been up and down lately. Things happening. Sometimes I still think about dying. Just to get rid of everything. No more worries. It scares me sometimes that when I think about dying I don't feel like I would be losing much. Like it wouldn't really matter. I'm supposed to value my own life higher, am I not? I do value it more when I'm not depressed. Then I can see the things I would miss. And I'm not depressed as often as I used to be. So it's not all bad. I am not in any immediate danger. I'm a lot stronger than I used to be. Better days will come. I hope.

Where do doctors draw blood from when they take a blood sample? I'm worried he'll see my scars and want explanations. But they're old scars. I hope that can be explanation enough.

Now I lay my bones to rest.

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