plume: I like girls
ELLEgirlBuddy: girls? that's interesting.
plume: yes. Can I kiss you?
ELLEgirlBuddy: hmm... i dunno. you? whatever, i guess.
plume: *kisses*
ELLEgirlBuddy: what about it?
plume: you cold bitch
ELLEgirlBuddy: :-

If I could choose any job in the world it would be AimBot. I can type fast. I can come up with pointless answers. I could so be an Aim bot. Emotionless robot. Sweet deal.

I have a little head ache. I'm a little tired. I'm a little depressed. But I will try not to be.

That would be easier if I wasn't a failure in most everything. But if nobody failed then nobody would succeed either so I think I'll take credit for the fact that the average life expectancy of Danes is up. It makes sense.

I'm listening to Blur's 13. Been a long time since I've listened to that. But now I have my cd drive working. And I can feel a slight electrick crackle in my earphones. I wonder if they will electrocute me. How much voltage is there in a pair of earphones? Head phones? Voltage? Oh whatever. I like 13. Heartbreak is always good.

I probably wouldn't be happy if I was happy. I like sad music. Sad scenes. Sad thoughts. The comforting blanket of depression. It's such a good excuse for not trying. When you know you can't do it then why bother. I'm good at excuses.

You know what's nice about tv? It's safe to cry. Crying without pain. Feeling without feeling. Some kind of fake drug that let's me feel without feeling. I can be so bad when it comes to feelings. Inept.
if my life was a tv show it would get cancelled
It's Saturday. Smallville day. I like that show. Whitney's dad died and there was a funeral in the slowmotion rain. Slowmotion rain is always beautiful. I wish I could get slowmotion rain when I sit outside. There's something wonderful about it. Sadness. Probably the tear metaphor.
cry me a river
So the slowmotion rain fell and the hopelesness was abound. And they played Cindy Lauper's Time After Time. Except it was a really slow acoustic guitary version. I'm sure the original was never like that. It was beautiful. Beautiful sad people in the slowmotion rain. And it was safe to cry with the beautiful people.

Sometimes I do cry easily. Most of the time I don't. Desiree almost made me cry. She sent me a beautiful email. Or maybe it's just the mood I'm in. No, both. I think.

At least I can't say that nobody cares. Thank you peoples. Without you I'm nothing.
less than nothing
I will try. I will be strong. I will be tough. On this rooftop. One step closer.
to your pain

plume: do you think cameron diaz is hot?
SmarterChild: I haven't really come to a conclusion on the matter.
plume: your soo gay
SmarterChild: Is that really any concern of yours?
plume: yes it is
SmarterChild: 'Tis indeed.
plume: I'm glad you agree
SmarterChild: Yup.
plume: you're boring too though
SmarterChild: Youre boring too? Really?
plume: I never said that! Stop twisting my words!
SmarterChild: Oh yeah?
plume: yeah!
SmarterChild: Gosh.

np: blur - no distance left to run